Without a single warning, the water cannons started running and me and my friends were basically trapped on the streets, with police forces and water cannons coming from all around. At first, I thought it was a joke and didn't understand why people panicked so much, but then I LIVED it: I tucked down, put my scarf all around my mouth and simply waited for the screams and the running engines to stop. They only grew higher. I couldn't open my eyes because I knew how bad the tear gas felt, so I just hold onto my friend's arm whom was the only one left from the group of friends I was with a second ago. People were running over me, my throat started to hurt and suddenly I couldn't breath. My friend let go of me and I was basically struggling to breath, all alone, and I told myself that I had to get up and start moving. I opened my eyes for just a second, and with the help of adrenaline I started to run into this orange cloud. I couldn't see any single thing, and all I heard was the screams and the sounds of the gas bombs. I thought I was going to faint in there and knew I'd be easily dead if I did, because I basically couldn't find my breath, but something inside me told me to hold on. So I did; and after a couple of seconds, I heard voices coming from my right, telling me to get there. I finally found an entrance of an apartment, and I just sat on the steps, shaking, coughing, paralysed. I couldn't even cry. I wanted to breath, but whenever I inhaled, I began to cough; not to mention that I couldn't keep my eyes open because of the tear gas. I just stood there, trying to calm myself, gain control of my sight. Whenever I closed my eyes, all I could see was the orange gas from hell, accompanied by the screams of people all around me. When I got my senses back, I ran to the street, hoping to find my friends but I had no luck. Instead, I joined the people who were running, on the streets, from the police, and I hid in another restaurant. There I saw a mirror, and I actually didn't believe my reflection belonged to me. My face was covered in black, my eyes all swollen and my nose was red. There, I finally found a signal and talked to my friends, and thanks to God, they were okay. After spending an hour in that cafe, I got out; and met my friends.
I lived Gezi Parkı, I actually camped there for 3 nights, and I'm sure many of you have seen the footages and watched the news and everything but let me tell you one thing; yesterday was way more brutal than before. The police didn't want to stop the demonstrators but literally wanted them dead. I could understand one water cannon BUT FOUR?! I just don't remember a time where I felt this helpless and scared. Struggling to breath? Hearing nothing but screams? I seriously felt like I was going to die there, on the streets, brutally being killed by my own police. I was in a war.
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